Trusting God

Posted by Jess

As a flight attendant we have trips scheduled that we have to fly. If we don’t want to fly we can ask others to fly in our place, or we can call in sick. But when you call in sick you cant use your travel benefits. Last year, I had a trip scheduled for the time I was going to be in Wales, but I took a leap of faith. I believed God wanted me to go to the Hilsong conference. So I flew with my friend to England. I remember Matt said I was being irresponsible. I was so nervous. Will someone pick my trip up? Will God come through? We had been in England a day and my trip was still on my schedule. We were leaving for Wales the next morning, it was several hours outside of England, so I had to decide. If the trip was still there in the morning I would have to go home, I thought. Could I chance it? I checked my schedule. It was still there. Your like the hired hand from John 10 that leaves the sheep, you’re leaving Stacy, I thought. I don’t want to be like the hired hand. I don’t want to leave Stacy. 

I started to message people with reserve days to swap. My phone would buzz with the  reply, “No.”

I wanted to trust the Lord that He would move the trip. “I want to trust you Lord,” but I am so nervous, I thought. What if no one takes the trip, and I lose my job? I felt like God wanted me to be at this conference. I was in the shower, drowning in my thoughts, and the k.o. thought came, if I get fired I wont have insurance. I need insurance. I started to freak out. I’m sorry Lord, I cant trust you with this, I thought. I left the bathroom, rehearsing that I would say to Stacy that I have to go home. I looked at my phone one last time. Someone said yes! I could go! And we had a AMAZING time! 

A few weeks later I found out that my friend was going to pick up my trip. She said her plans had cancelled and she was going to pick up my trip, but when she went to pick it up it was already gone. I learned that God had me covered both ways. I could have trusted Him. I can trust Him now. And so can you!

Until next time,

☮❤=)
Jess