God is faithful

Posted by Jess

When I was sick I was obsessed with the question, "Am I trusting the Lord? Am I really believing?" I would work myself into boughs of anxiety and fear, wondering if I was trusting the Lord enough to be saved. But are we saved by the measure of our faith or are we saved because we have faith, even the size of a mustard seed? What does God say? God says that even when we are faithless He remains faithful. His word says it time and time again. God is faithful. So maybe it's not how much I am holding on, but how tight He is holding on to me.


Until next time,

☮❤=)
Jess

God will help

Posted by Jess

God encouraged me today. I was thinking about my life, we had just watched a video that asked what are you doing with your life? I don't want to waste my life, I thought, I want to do all that God has called me to do. This is a fear that I have often, that I'm not doing or going to be able to do what God wants me to do. The way I have been with anxiety and fear, it doesn't feel like I can do anything for God. Several months ago a preacher had a prophetic word for me that I would teach, but I've been having a hard time believing it. But today Moses came to mind (I think it was the Holy Spirit). Moses didn't think that he could do what God was calling him to do. And you know what God said?
"I will be with you." He also said he made our mouth, he made us. He is the Lord. He would help him.

Here is what happened:

10 Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”

11 The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord?12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”

How encouraging! God made our mouths, He made us, He is in control and He can and will help us to do all He has called us to do. And more than that, He is God, so He is more than capable to do it!


Until next time,

☮❤=)
Jess

Trusting God

Posted by Jess

As a flight attendant we have trips scheduled that we have to fly. If we don’t want to fly we can ask others to fly in our place, or we can call in sick. But when you call in sick you cant use your travel benefits. Last year, I had a trip scheduled for the time I was going to be in Wales, but I took a leap of faith. I believed God wanted me to go to the Hilsong conference. So I flew with my friend to England. I remember Matt said I was being irresponsible. I was so nervous. Will someone pick my trip up? Will God come through? We had been in England a day and my trip was still on my schedule. We were leaving for Wales the next morning, it was several hours outside of England, so I had to decide. If the trip was still there in the morning I would have to go home, I thought. Could I chance it? I checked my schedule. It was still there. Your like the hired hand from John 10 that leaves the sheep, you’re leaving Stacy, I thought. I don’t want to be like the hired hand. I don’t want to leave Stacy. 

I started to message people with reserve days to swap. My phone would buzz with the  reply, “No.”

I wanted to trust the Lord that He would move the trip. “I want to trust you Lord,” but I am so nervous, I thought. What if no one takes the trip, and I lose my job? I felt like God wanted me to be at this conference. I was in the shower, drowning in my thoughts, and the k.o. thought came, if I get fired I wont have insurance. I need insurance. I started to freak out. I’m sorry Lord, I cant trust you with this, I thought. I left the bathroom, rehearsing that I would say to Stacy that I have to go home. I looked at my phone one last time. Someone said yes! I could go! And we had a AMAZING time! 

A few weeks later I found out that my friend was going to pick up my trip. She said her plans had cancelled and she was going to pick up my trip, but when she went to pick it up it was already gone. I learned that God had me covered both ways. I could have trusted Him. I can trust Him now. And so can you!

Until next time,

☮❤=)
Jess